Mar 01, 2010 Can I stop binge eating if part of me doesnt really want to?

by prozacgirl

I know a lot of the theory about stopping binge eating but I just keep doing it. I try to avoid my trigger foods. I try to keep having breakfast lunch and dinner and not dieting. Ive tried stopping during a binge and waiting a while...blah blah blah. But when it comes to it, when I get the desire to binge then eating is all I can think about and eating is all I WANT to think about! At those times I LOVE EATING. and I want to eat more and more. It just feels so good. I feel guilty writing this now. After Ive finished and Im feeling sick or my tummy is hurting, then Ill feel bad about it and wish id never done it. But I know it will happen again.
Does this mean that I dont really want to give it up? I think at least a big part of me doesnt want to. A big part of me loves it! That makes me feel really bad.
Does anyone else secretly love binge eating?

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Mar 21, 2010

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by: Anonymous

I am exactly the same way. Although i try to eat really healthy throughout the day. I eat a healthy breakfast, a healthy lunch, a small healthy snack, and a healthy supper. And i feel full enough and don't want to eat anymore after supper. But sometimes i find myself in front of the cupboard having some sort of snack, that leads to something else which leads to something else. And so on and so forth, until i am absoluetly miserable. Then i feel incredible miserable and consider trying to puke to get rid of the feeling. Because i absoluetly hate feeling full. I recently lost thirty pounds and am finally to where i want to be. So when i binge i feel incredibly guilty and like i'm going to gain it all back. And i hate that feeling. So i swear off all bad foods and swear i'm never gonna binge again. So for a couple days i eat really well and excercise well, although i exercise well everyday binge or not. And then i end up binging again and feeling bad again and the cycle continues. I have no idea what causes my binges; before i lost all that weight i never binged. It just recently started. I am a happy girl, i have a boyfriend i love, i'm good in school, i have a good family, and a few good friends. I just don't understand why i do it. And i would like to, but i don't know who to turn to. And i would like it to stop. Because i don't think i can go through gaining any weight.

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Mar 21, 2010
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I am exactly the same way. Although i try to eat really healthy throughout the day. I eat a healthy breakfast, a healthy lunch, a small healthy snack, and a healthy supper. And i feel full enough and don't want to eat anymore after supper. But sometimes i find myself in front of the cupboard having some sort of snack, that leads to something else which leads to something else. And so on and so forth, until i am absoluetly miserable. Then i feel incredible miserable and consider trying to puke to get rid of the feeling. Because i absoluetly hate feeling full. I recently lost thirty pounds and am finally to where i want to be. So when i binge i feel incredibly guilty and like i'm going to gain it all back. And i hate that feeling. So i swear off all bad foods and swear i'm never gonna binge again. So for a couple days i eat really well and excercise well, although i exercise well everyday binge or not. And then i end up binging again and feeling bad again and the cycle continues. I have no idea what causes my binges; before i lost all that weight i never binged. It just recently started. I am a happy girl, i have a boyfriend i love, i'm good in school, i have a good family, and a few good friends. I just don't understand why i do it. And i would like to, but i don't know who to turn to. And i would like it to stop. Because i don't think i can go through gaining any weight.

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Mar 06, 2010

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Hi Entrise! Sorry it took so long for me to upload your reply, I was away for a few days and couldn?t update this site!
Are you receiving any support to help you through this from a counsellor or therapist?
Please do not give up hope. People can and do improve from the kind of binge eating problems you and Prozacgirl have described.
Its interesting that you recognise that you restrict your diet so much that a binge is inevitable. And you make comments like ?I try so hard to be good?.
Part of the work needed is to stop the restriction of your intake so much. Even if you have just had a binge, do not restrict your diet the next day to try to make up for it. You need to break the binge-restrict-binge-restrict cycle.
And part of that is also about moving away from thoughts about which foods we ?should? or ?should not? eat, and about foods being ?good? or ?bad?. If we feel that something is forbidden or bad and try to avoid it, then we often want it all the more, and after avoiding for so long, we react by going to the other extreme of binging.
Be gentle with yourself. And start to make sure that you have regular meals throughout the day even if you are still bingeing. Then, start to make small healthy changes to those meals slowly over time.
It can help if we improve our nutrition and use food to look after ourselves, instead of food being something that we just think we should have less of.
I hope you find the rest of the information in this website useful. Im still building it and it should continue to grow over time.
So be patient with yourself. If you need to speak to someone, don?t forget there are helplines available ? see our pages http://www.coping-with-binge-eating.com/eating-disorder-help.html

Matt C

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Hi Entrise! Sorry it took so long for me to upload your reply, I was away for a few days and couldn?t update this site! Are you receiving any support to help you through this from a counsellor or therapist? Please do not give up hope. People can and do improve from the kind of binge eating problems you and Prozacgirl have described. Its interesting that you recognise that you restrict your diet so much that a binge is inevitable. And you make comments like ?I try so hard to be good?. Part of the work needed is to stop the restriction of your intake so much. Even if you have just had a binge, do not restrict your diet the next day to try to make up for it. You need to break the binge-restrict-binge-restrict cycle. And part of that is also about moving away from thoughts about which foods we ?should? or ?should not? eat, and about foods being ?good? or ?bad?. If we feel that something is forbidden or bad and try to avoid it, then we often want it all the more, and after avoiding for so long, we react by going to the other extreme of binging. Be gentle with yourself. And start to make sure that you have regular meals throughout the day even if you are still bingeing. Then, start to make small healthy changes to those meals slowly over time. It can help if we improve our nutrition and use food to look after ourselves, instead of food being something that we just think we should have less of. I hope you find the rest of the information in this website useful. Im still building it and it should continue to grow over time. So be patient with yourself. If you need to speak to someone, don?t forget there are helplines available ? see our pages <a href=" http://www.coping-with-binge-eating.com/eating-disorder-help.html"> http://www.coping-with-binge-eating.com/eating-disorder-help.html</a><br /> Matt C

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Mar 03, 2010

I can relate to trying to stop binge eating and not really wanting to.
by: Entrise

I know exactly what you are going through. I binge eat also. I do it secretly because I don't want anyone to see how much I eat. I diet and try to avoid my trigger foods. They are too many to list. My greatest weakness is cake. I try so hard to "be good" and find myself falling into a box of swiss cake rolls and holding my stomache after I have finished the entire box. I even comtemplated purging. I did once and didn't try it again. I rather be full and miserable than purge and lousy. I love and hate binging at the same time. I am ashamed of it and how I look. But, I just can't stop. I don't have good eating habits. I have no concept of portion sizes. When I diet I restrict my intake so much that a binge is inevitable. I have given up hope again and am on a daily binge routine. This has been going on since mid February. I have no solution to our problem. However, you are not alone.